Getting Polished

Summer is coming to a close, I've traveled to my home state to enjoy family/friend time and now back and settling into a new school year.

I have to remind myself what a mess I was this time last year. I'm thankful not to be dealing with the same range and amplitude of insecurities. I do admit, that despite an enjoyable summer, they seem to have returned with different flavors. I'm daunted by ambiguities and feeling like I won't perform up to personal standards in the upcoming terms. Afraid I won't "get what I need/get what I came for" in regards to my studies/goals. Perhaps it's simply loss of momentum. It happens to everyone.

Family and friends are great sources of support but I realize ultimately, a lot of the solutions have to come from yourself. But you know, this video is also helpful (if you are impatient go to 5:27)

I've been experimenting with:

ACTCoach App-to track any intense negative emotional peaks and the ways I've dealt with them. I've been trying this for about 5 months.

Whole 30- Committing to a spell without legumes and chocolate.

Also, a friend sent me a few books, one of which is: The Happiness Trap by Russ Harris. The book jacket may deter you from reading it in public, for fear that others will pity you in your attempt to scrape yourself together. Skip the fatal foreword and go to the content beginning in chapter 1, where the focus orients towards mindfulness.

Yoga-I'm getting back into it, but this time with guidance. You know, just trying to fulfill the cliche.

"Comparison is the thief of joy." Theodore Roosevelt

"Everything is hard before it is easy" Goethe

"If you are irritated by every rub, how will you be polished?" Rumi