Both my boyfriend and I came home fried yesterday; we "walked it out" and brain barfed all of the clutter. It's nice to be with someone (not even necessarily romantically) who will confront the yucks and do something about it with you. Walking and being outside is a reminder that there are other things happening in the world and is a fast way to transport outside yourself.
I went to bed early-always great! Woke up without the alarm and sprang for the "weekend coffee" the splurge-y stuff you buy to celebrate with :)
I've been working on a head stand for over a month and I've worked it little-by-little into my morning routine. I surprised myself big time today-there has been a lot of time now where I felt I would never be able to lift my legs off my knees. Turns out, it was just a littttttlllleee extra strength needed and WOOSH my legs went up into the air all crazy and flailed. I felt good to have reached the next step and joyous to know that I still had things to learn to do with my body.
I started meditation 25 and the phone rang (6:45 AM); it was my Dad...Grandma passed away.
I'm more sad in moments where I think my Dad and Aunt don't have a Mom or Dad around anymore. I am tremendously grateful I shared nearly a third of her life with her, I got to see her when she was mentally healthy, tell her about the exciting developments in my life, make her a meal or two, have coffee, hold hands, give kisses...
Well, the day kept going...Grandma is not attending orientation in heaven I guess- she got straight to work and ended my pondering cycle regarding grad school. I got a call offering an assistantship from one University and a grand total of zero dollars from the other. My boyfriend spent nearly an hour sorting out dull details with financial aid on my behalf, which I am extraordinarily grateful for.
There is a view on my way home from work that always stops my mind and reminds me to say thanks. Actually, there's a nice greeting to my day as well...
I practice smiling every time I drive by on my way to this
And say some gratitudes on my way home-I've tried to pull over to take a picture of this particular spectacle but the scene is too enormous...
New goal will be to try and capture it. Today it made me teary (as I've been many times looking at it before) because I almost drove by it without thinking, and I felt like she snapped my eyes to that spot to make me remember, remind me to appreciate and give thanks. I remembered it's the first day in almost 10 years she gets to spend with my Grandpa again.
Grandma was very pious; this vista is a cross overlooking the valley. Perhaps Grandpa was always working to help me achieve my dreams (he was a music teacher, too) but I think Grandma was that one liiiiitlleeeee thing that made the rest of my life WOOOSH today.
Re-attempted meditation 25 when I got home. I would not say I was "effective." But I did it.
Celebrating her life, success and happiness with a glass of champagne tonight <3
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